the gentle bush

Posted by on July 4, 2012

“Let the gentle bush dig its roots deep and spread upward to split the boulder.”
– Carl Sandburg

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In lieu of a poem today, a quote by a poet.

I took this photo at the home of our friends who started their own farm three (I believe?) years ago in Ohio. We stayed with them one night on our way from Washington DC to South Bend, Indiana. I liked the look of this vintage table cloth hung as a curtain in the kitchen window, above the sink.

This is going to be another rushed post because I really cannot sit down and write too much of anything right now. My sister is in town with her husband and my niece and nephew and our house is busy. It is nice to have our first visitors in our new house, and especially my sister.

Today is the Fourth of July. There will be a parade right here in our little neighborhood which, we’ve heard, is a very big deal. Yesterday we saw that people had already set out their lawn chairs along the road in the town center, apparently to reserve their place in advance, so there was just a long row of empty chairs sitting there with an air of expectation.

This is not going to go down as the easiest summer for me. The heat is completely oppressive right now, reaching temperatures over 100 every day for the last week or so and with no end in sight. I wish I could say I was looking forward to flying to Orlando by myself to retrieve the furniture that my parents are giving us, but to put it bluntly, I’m really not. It’s going to be hot, and a lot of work, and I have a feeling that my dad is going to try to talk me into taking a lot more stuff than we want or need, and I am going to have to try to tip toe through those conflicts without losing my equanimity, which, given my track record with my parents, is highly unlikely.

And I am needing to muster up some patience out of nowhere, some gentleness out of nowhere, because the thing I am realizing is that our house is not going to become what I want it to be overnight. It is going to take a long time to make gradual changes and improvements here and there, but I realize that, since moving in, I have the capacity to obsess over all of the things I want to do with it, and then fall into a slight despondency over the fact that there are innumerable obstacles to doing all of those things at once. And here I place all of the emphasis on the at once part of that sentence.

We planted a pear tree in our front yard and we finally bought a sofa too. We were lucky with the sofa because I happened to find it at one of those super fancy way-out-of-our-price-range furniture stores (Arhaus), but it was a floor model of a sofa that is being supplanted by an updated style, so we got it for, relatively speaking, a steal. It is being delivered tomorrow and I am very excited. Real furniture in our living room– hooray!

And I have two pallets in our backyard waiting to be turned into a makeshift compost bin. I need to go back to Lowes to find two more discarded pallets and a few other cheap supplies. There is really nothing like loading two huge, splintery wooden pallets into the back of your car in 107 degree heat.

When we moved into the house the owner had this hideous fake, faded, potted palm tree thing in the front entrance, which I promptly carried/rolled to the side of the house out of sight until we could put it out with our garbage. Last night I had a dream that the front of our house was adorned with at least ten of these awful palm trees lining the front walk. The thing is, I think the garbage service forgot to bring us our garbage receptacles, because the “seven to ten business days” that they promised to bring them in has passed, and we have a huge pile of recycling, and, yes, garbage bags, in a corner of our basement that we still have not been able to put on the curb. I’d call about it today but it is the Fourth of July.

So, things are still going to take time, and I need to let this mentality of slow progress sink in so that I do not get too impatient and ungentle with my children. If there is one thing I want to be with my children, it is gentle, and I confess that I have been having some lapses in that area lately.

So this is all I have for today. Happy Fourth of July to all who celebrate!

  1. Manuela
    July 4, 2012

    wow, you have a lot going on right now.
    I hope your trip to Orlando won't be too bad.
    I am so happy for you, that you got a sofa. A real, fancy sofa. Post photos soon, please.
    Once you have more furniture, your home will probably already feel so much better. Then you can slowly start with the details.
    Enjoy the time with you sister.

  2. A M B E R
    July 5, 2012

    What I dread most about moving: that in-between feeling of knowing what you want the house to look/feel like and all the work (and money to be spent) to get it there.

    I hear you. But it will get there, and you have the added bonus of knowing that the changes and work done are yours alone.

    I am looking forward to the couch shots too. And I hope your garbage receptacles come sooner than later!

    Sorry I posted twice for the poetry thing, if you want you can go to Simply Linked and delete the first one (exactly the kind of thing at the top of your list right now I'm sure).